You deceived everyone. That is what you do best. Hours upon hours I contemplated and tried to please you. I didn't want to be like any of your ex's -Mary Ann, Crying Girl, Evanne, Stephanie, Danielle, Crazy Kirsten, Sophie, Lauren, Julie etc.
Your allies think the world of you just like I did. You could turn on the charm, the kindness, the warmth, and the humour. You mastered it all. Mastery one of your favorite words.
You had me convinced I was the cause of your behavior and I needed to share the blame. I fell for your intensity. I truly believed I was the only woman who could ever matter so much to you. I went in with my eyes wide open. As you aptly reminded me daily, my duty was to be by your side and focus on you. I had no reason whatsoever to be depressed.
I took away your power. That power you value so highly. The power you used to control me. All the little games you played making me feel as if I was crazy.
Here I am today still standing. Though the foundation may be weak and trembling. I have gained strength.
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